I’m fortunate enough to have compassionate and understanding friends whom I can talk to, but they won’t be able to understand my situation. Only you people may have a solution.The thing is, like most people here, I’m so dreadfully shy. I’m almost 18 now, and never had a relationship, and I feel like I’m wasting my best years, sitting alone in the dark and writing to myself.
I was fortunate to meet some people from the opposite sex, who were interested in getting to know me better and weren’t shy themselves: they didn’t wait for me to start talking with them, they initialized conversation and first meeting.
The worst case case I experienced is quite recent, and here I want your advice. I met this bright, pretty, funny girl. We started talking by chance (I would NEVER be able to initiate a conversation!) and things were going well. She even came by to my house a few times to get papers for a course we both took and she stayed and we had great conversation. But, since then, since i realized I liked her, my darn chronic shyness makes me ignore her whenever we meet. I avoid eye contact, I pretend as if she’s not there. Does that make any sense? She began to lose interest a while ago, and my last chance is up, since our course finishes in a couple of weeks.
How can overcome this uncontrollable urge to make myself disappear by ignoring people? What can I do about this particular situation?