I just started a job out of college and all of my coworkers seem so energetic and enthusiastic, but I can’t fake enthusiasm. How can I be enthusiastic about doing something that I’m neutral about? Most of them admit that their work is WORK, but they always act happy and talk about crap (people they know, gossip). I have nothing to talk about because I don’t have any friends to talk about. Work is my life for the moment. This is bad because I hate my job right now. I feel incompetent and helpless, but I know that I am skilled enough to perform the job. I just don’t have the people skills to kiss up to people and find out info. If you don’t kiss up to people then you are limited in what you can do. You need “contacts,” recommendations and references from other people just to get ahead in this sh–ty world!!! I hate being shy. It’s the worst feeling in the world. Sometimes I wonder why I was put on this planet. To add to my frustration, my supervisor always is always busy and I can never get help on things that he assigns me -no guidance whatsoever; when I do ask him questions he talks to me in a condescending manner and I feel like strangling him!!!! It’s hard for me to talk about things to people because I am always thinking…it’s like my mind needs to slow down and process things before I know what to say. DAMN SHYNESS! I’D RATHER BE PHYSICALLY DISABLED THAN SHY!!!!